It’s been about two full months since I’d last written my blog. Not that I’d forgotten, not that I was being apathetic about it, not that I didn’t have meaningful things to say. It has been simply a matter of feeling defeated by the day before I could even find the brute strength to get it all out.
I can’t quite put my finger on what’s going on inside my head, nor escape from the frighteningly erratic thought pattern of my brain…. Trouble’s a brewin’.
I so desperately want to write and produce something of which I am generally proud, that has meaning and is thoughtful and quirky.
But all I have now (not to sound melodramatic) is a lot of nothingness.
At times like these, food is just a means of making pain in my stomach go away. Music is just random sounds. Sleep is a means of temporary escape rather than a time to allow my body to recuperate. Living is just passing time.
So why am I posting? I guess I’m just writing to say a weak, “Hello,” and that I am still alive. Still here and putting one foot in front of the other.
And that I hope that it will get better.