April 4, 2014
I can’t believe that it’s already been an entire year since the day you were born… and what a year it has been! This has been a year of many firsts for you – sitting up, crawling, eating solid foods, standing, grabbing objects with your little hands (though sometimes they are objects that I don’t want you to grab!), smiling, and waving to name a few. This has also been a year of many firsts for me as your mother. Believe it or not, you have taught me so very much. From you, I have learned to remain calmer, to believe in myself more, and also what’s really important – particularly my family. In the year that has passed, I have both laughed and cried more profoundly than I ever have before in my life, and each day, I fall more and more deeply in love with you than I could have ever comprehended before you were born. You are charming, cute, mischievous, and adorable in every way possible (even when you cry and scream or are covered in food). You are already such a character- You’re my little man, Sebastian Gunther!
The day that you were born, 365 days ago to be exact, was not only the happiest day of my life, but also the most surreal day that I have ever experienced. It’s a day that I replay in my head over and over again, trying to recall every detail, no matter how small or random, so that I can keep it in my heart for the rest of my life.
I’ll never forget the very first moment that I saw you. You were just so precious and my heart instantly melted at the sight of you. It really was love at first sight. Both your daddy and I had tears of joy. You were so beautiful. You also had the roundest little head that I had ever seen (like Charlie Brown, I thought to myself)!
Although I was a bit weak from the birth, which had been a Caesarian section, and overwhelmed by what I was experiencing and feeling for the very first time, I spoke to you when they brought you over to me. Although I couldn’t hold you quite yet, as your moist cheek touched mine as the nurse held you near me, I told you, “Hi, Sebastian! I’m your mommy. I love you, we did it!”
Now, one year later, I still cannot believe how much you have grown and changed, and you have also helped me to grow and change. I want you to know that I am immensely proud of you. I love you and I love being your mother. I wish you, Sebastian, a very, very happy first birthday, and so many more to come.
With all my heart,